My Life My Story

To sum things up

mynameisturi — Thu, 21 May 2009 02:45:20 +0000

Udah lama juga ya saya ga posting.. Hehehe

Lately I feel my life is so messed up.

Saya harusnya pergi bulan September ini ke Belanda.
Untuk ngelanjutin sekolah saya ke S2. Tapi, karena satu dan lain hal, saya ga dapet beasiswa untuk pergi.
Dan untuk pake biaya sendiri? Ayah saya ga mau modalin untuk anak perempuannya, karena dia pikir lebih baik untuk ngemodalin adik saya yang laki-laki.
In one side I feel it’s not fair, but in other side, I feel it’s making sense actually.
Tapiii, yg saya ga suka, beliau menyalahkan dan menimpakan masalah ga dapet beasiswa ini kepada saya.
Saya udh berusaha sebisa mungkin untuk dapet beasiswa, tapi ya ga dapet, mau gmn?
Gara2 itu, I feel stressed out. Maag saya yg jarang kambuh jd sering kambuh, tidur jadi lewat tengah malem, bangun suka kebablasan *kemaren aja baru bangun jam 8.15, padahal ngantor jam 8*

Ya, itu emang ciri2 saya kalo lagi banyak masalah, tidur malem, bangun siang, ngurung diri di kamar.
Saya jd ngehindarin keluarga saya di rumah.

I feel really tired getting yelled at, or even arguing with my father.
I don’t have the energy to do it anymore.

And to adding it up, I’m arguing with my boyfriend last night.
Pertamanya sepele sih.. A simple and nice persuasion would work for me.

But nooo, he put it all on me! He said that he just wants to please everyone.
So I’m assuming that he feels I don’t understand him.
That I always wants more from him. And I think he feels that I always got in his way everytime he wants to see his family.
God! I’m so tired of this! Dia itu ga bilang sama saya kalo ayahnya di jakarta.
And he “just” said that???

Ya.. mungkin saya juga lg butuh menyendiri dulu. Butuh waktu buat mikir, buat nyelesain masalah saya satu2.
Jadi kalo lg liat saya, dan saya lagi jalan sendiri ntah dimana…
Jangan heran ya.. Itu biasanya saya banyak jalan gitu saya tuh sambil mikir..
Hehehehe

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Pengen sushi

mynameisturi — Wed, 15 Apr 2009 16:03:43 +0000

Kok udah dari seminggu yang lalu pengen banget sushi yaaa?

Hari sabtu udah makan berdua ama ibu di midori..

Tapi koookkk ga puasss yaaa?

Pengennya sushi boon.. Yang di edward forrer dago…

Hari senin ke sana ama si Ndut Arie trus rencananya Tanti mau nyusul…

Tapi ga jualan aja doonnkk…

Hmmmm…. Jadi lapeerrr…

Gawat nih laper malem2.. hehe

For now… Let’s just enjoy the picture..

Hmmmm… Nyam nyam nyam *drooling*

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Padi – Jangan Datang Malam Ini

mynameisturi — Thu, 02 Apr 2009 15:17:05 +0000

Kau datang mengejutkan diriku
Menikam hatiku ..detak jantungku
Sesungguhnya ku tak inginkan dirimu
Ada disini… ditempat ini oh ho

Di pelupuk hatiku
Melupakanmu
Di pusara jiwaku
Pernah ku memiliki
Kisah tersembunyi dalam hidupku

(Mengapa) kau harus datang disini
(Malam ini) tak bisa ku hindari
(Maafkan) bila kumenafikanmu
(Bukan saatnya) dan bukan waktunya

Apapun yang terjadi
Kau tau, sebenarnya hidupku menyenangkan… sudah cukup, cukup sudah cukup ku berbahagia

Tak sepatutnya kita , berjumpa lagi
Tak sepantasnya aku
Menyimpan perasaan di satu tanganku yang lain

(Mengapa) kau harus datang disini
(Malam ini) tak bisa ku hindari
(Maafkan) bila kumenafikanmu
(Bukan saatnya) dan bukan waktunya

Semua tlah berakhir di hari itu
Tak perlu kususun serpihan yang dulu
Aku tak bisa membuatnya sempurna
Hanya keinginan terbaik bagi kita…. semuaanya

Kau datang disini, terlanjur, mengejutkanku

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NOOOOO!!!

mynameisturi — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 15:52:47 +0000

Seeeee?? You did that to almost every girl you see!!

Kok kesel yaaaa?

Kenapa yaaaa??

Am I? Am I? NOOOO!!!

Please God noooo!! He’s just being him…

STOP IT! I already have a great guy who loves me with all his heart!

I have to stop it!

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It’s you.. Again!

mynameisturi — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 16:21:24 +0000

Someway, somehow…

He always finds the way…

Did I started it?

Or even if I didn’t started it, he will?

He always there when I need him to be there…

Or is it just my imagination?

Susah banget lepasnya…..

Ga bisa, ato ga mau ya?

(**ah.. sugesti gw aja kali ya?**)

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Yes! I am!

mynameisturi — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 03:52:24 +0000

Yes! I am FAT!! So what???

Ngomong tuh kok suka seenaknya sih??

Emang susah ya kalo orang pendidikannya rendah??

Otaknya ga nyampe!!

At least I live healthy…

I exercise regularly.. And I don’t smoke like YOU!!

Annndd.. I don’t drink that much of caffeine.. LIKE YOU!!!

GOD!!! I really hate it here… *sigh*

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hhuuufff….

mynameisturi — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 15:07:53 +0000

Too much… Si boss lagi rese luar biasa… Di rumah kena semprot orang tua ga abis…

They said I have to figure out what I want to do next… Honestly? I don’t know!

Pengen sih S2 lagi… Tapi ga mau jauh2 ama si uncit…

Ini si uncit baru pergi 4 hari aja luntang lantungnya kayak orang ga karuan…

Apalagi 1,5 taauunnn? Dia mah enak aja bilang ga usah mikirin dia…

Jangan gara2 dia saya jadi ga pergi… He’s the only one I can rely on…

Even though sometimes I can’t stand his stubbornes..

Kadang2 juga ga tahan ama emosi dia yg suka mledak2…

Suka bikin mikir 1000x…

I know.. I’m weird… Saya manja banget ama si uncit…
Ga bisa banget kalo lagi ga ada dia.. bawaannya uring2an..
Tapi juga sering banget ga tahan ama dia…
Ampe sekarang aja saya ga yakin 100% ama dia…
Lagian apa juga ya yang pasti? Satu2nya yang pasti kan ketidakpastian itu sendiri.. hehe

Ya ampyyuuunnn… kenapa ya semuanya harus dateng di saat yang bersamaan gini?

I just want to sleep…

And wake up when everything is over…

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I. Am. Not.

mynameisturi — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 17:49:42 +0000

“I’m NOT in love with you anymore!”

so why do I still thinking of you occasionally..?

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…..

mynameisturi — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 15:45:08 +0000

Lagi ga jelaass…

Daritadi mau nulis terus diapus lagi.. Udah gitu nulis lagi diapus lagi…

Lagi ga karuan bgt perasaan…

Di kantor lagi ga enak banget.. The pressure is so high righ now..

Too much tention going on..

My relationship isn’t doing any favor…

My bestfriends are getting married, or at least getting there soon and i feel like i’m going to be left out (don’t get me wrong.. I still feel happy for them.. But still.. It’s not going to be the same again after they got married.. Even after they said it will)

The proper words to describe how I feel today is:

“GA JELAS”

hehehehe

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Get to know yourself better – personality quiz

mynameisturi — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 06:26:25 +0000

Ikutan aaahhh… Ga ada kerjaan di kantor.. :p

Jadi gw ikutan personality quiz… Hehehe

Nyampah banget deh hari ini.

Here’s the result…

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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